So my BIG Christmas present this year is getting to see my grandma after 5 years...

The only problem is...she doesn't even remember she's my grandma anymore.

I feel selfish...but I don't really want to see her anymore.

Currently Reading Angela's Ashes: A Memoir By Frank McCourt see related

So hanging out in Waco with my family and Justin was really fun.  I could definitely get used to it. 

But then again, every time I get used to something, it always changes...

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven....I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.  That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil - this is the gift of God."  Ecclesiastes 3:1 & 12-13

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I'm going on a diet.

Currently Reading Wild at Heart: Discovering the Secret of a Man's Soul By John Eldredge see related

So I figure its time to update...because it has only been...FoReVeR*~!

I don't have much to say this time either.  I've been reading Wild at Heart and it's pretty good.  I've had to read other books in between though..so I'm kinda takin it slow.  It's interesting to read why boys do some of the things they do. Plus its making me a more understandable girl.  Teaches me how to treat Godly men and understand that they have a "question" and a wound just like we do.  Sometimes we think girls are the only ones who are hurt badly, but you boys have some pretty serious wounds too.  I hope I can be the beauty that you need to rescue and the captivating woman I am supposed to be in order to help us both fulfill God's beautiful plan.

I had a party Friday for Quinton originally...but it just turned into a hang out kinda thing.  Quinton's video wouldn't work on my computer, so we call just ended up watching Hitch.  I hope you guys had some fun...sorry if it was boring.  I enjoyed hanging out with y'all though.  Saturday I went to the Baylor game with Justin.  I actually had fun. haha! They won, which was exciting.  And I got to meet some of Justin's friends.  Not sure if they liked me.  I can be pretty quiet sometimes.  Sunday had church and then spent the rest of the day with Justin.  He watched 10 Things I Hate About You with me.  I loooove that movie! It makes me smile.  Justin does too...sometimes.  Yeah, he totally made the mistake of waking me up after I fell asleep watching the movie...yeah, not good. I'm pretty mean.

So I decided I'm going to write down everything that makes me happy this next week.  I tried a couple of weeks ago, but I got busy and forgot about it. haha. But yeah...this week...I'm writing them down!  That will be my next post, so I'll actually have something to write about.

HAND HUGS!!!!

So I have totally been back from Cali for like two weeks now...I've just been too lazy to update.  So sorry guys.

I feel like I dont have much to say.  There is nothing new or exciting going on in my life right now.  I'm sad that school is starting.  Its depressing...for multiple reasons.  Anyways, Today was fun.  Me, Jess, Miranda, Matt, Andrew, Tyler, and Brian all went to downtown fort worth to eat at this deep dish pizza place that Andrew loves.  Well Andrew is telling me and Miranda this story...and gets all excited flinging his arms every where and knocks over his FULL glass of FrEeZiNg ice water into my lap.  Yeah, I was completely soaked.  I screamed too..because it was so cold....and the whole restraunt gave me dirty looks and like left.  It was quite funny though, I must say.  I also locked my keys in the car today...fuuun.

Just had girl's night with Jess, Kelly, and Miranda.  It was TONS of fun.  I looove you girls to death.  We need to do that like once a month once school starts.  Because if we dont...these boys might kill us...haha.   I think y'all know what I am talking about.  Thanks for hanging out and having fun with me.  I hope y'all really did have fun and I'm not just making that up to make me feel better.

So God decided that he's going to put me through another trial right about now.  As I figure it...you are either in a trial, just out of a trial, or getting ready to go through one....constantly.  Thats all of life here on Earth for us Christians.  I'm not trying to make it sound like something horrible...because truly it's not.  One of the best feelings in the world is to see how God turns something bad, or confusing, or just really hard into something crazy amazing that you never dreamed would happen.  I don't see the outcome now, because I live in a world based on time, unlike God.  But God can see it...and it makes me happy to think that he's sitting there telling me everything is going to turn out just great not because he has to, or because "it always will", but because he can see the end right now here at the beginning.  I know that is kinda hard to grasp...I'm sitting here right now re-reading that asking myself if that really makes any sense whatsoever, but I think it does. 

I will learn from this, and I will grow from this.  Thats going to be my outlook.  I pray that will be my outlook.  Things arent always that simple... and I can't say there wont be times when I'm asking God why this is happening and why it has to hurt... but where would I be without all the "happenings" and "hurts" anyways. Hmm...Something to think about.

You will be my song, and I will sing. So dont cover up your ears, hear me, and what i have to tell. I hope that these words they find you well.

Hey guys

I'm in California right now.  I miss y'all like crazy.  But I'm having tons of fun here.  Got some nice tan lines.  I like when I'm tan.  Makes me feel somewhat pretty.  You should definitely call me and tell me how much you miss me!  I have some cool things to tell you if you do...but I dont want to spoil them for everyone.  I want you to want to talk to me.  I know that I can talk peoples ear off and can be quite the little talker.  Sorry for being that way.  But I'm glad y'all put up with me.

Okay sorry for rambling.  I miss you and I love you!